Sunday, January 5, 2014

Here is to 2014

My year I hate to say was sent off with the most stress I have felt for many years. Stress mostly work related with some personal thrown in there,  but stress never the less.  So as I woke up on the first day of 20-fourteen I pondered what my word would be.  Usually one just pops right up in my mind, but this year it is blocked.  I came to the realization that this is the year the will mark my half century of life. UGH....  I kinda felt this way at 30 but 40 was okay but again it pops up again this time around.  Its kinda like I felt I would be in a different place right now. Maybe something like I haven't done all the things I would have thought I would have done or maybe life is too complicated right now when it shouldn't be.

But then I stopped and slapped myself out of this mood.  I am who I am and where I am based on my life choices.  Good or Bad, right or wrong.  What I really am is MISUNDERSTOOD.  As a strong focused woman who works hard, works long hours and gets whats necessary done, I am considered a Bitch, So misunderstood as my friend at lunch the other day pointed out.  If I was a man, I would be respected and recognized for the job I do inside and outside of work.  I think some label me that way to justify their own actions. To make them feel better about choices they make.  So I can't help that and I can't be any different.  I am loyal and filled with responsibilities.  Responsibilities that very few know how entailed they are or how much time its takes me to fulfill my responsibilities.  So if being misunderstood is what I have to deal with, I will.  The people that really know me, know my true kindness.  That for those I care about know I would do ANYTHING for them. I know these people know this and those who don't will never understand me.

So my word for 2014 is MAGICAL.


 noun \ˈma-jik\
: a power that allows people (such as witches and wizards) to do impossible things by saying special words or performing special actions
: tricks that seem to be impossible and that are done by a performer to entertain people
: special power, influence, or skill

I do have "special powers" so to speak.  I seem to get things done that are deemed impossible by others.  So this magical work will continue because I don't know any other way.

But what I want to see is all the Magical things around me.  We can make our own magic.  Make everyday magical.  You just have to look for it.  To look in ordinary places to find wonder.  To think something nice or magical everyday.  That's my goal.  I will go look for magic when I can, where I can.

As I finish out my year of project life, I place this last picture in my album

I am reminded that my most magical power is being a wife, mother and mother in law.  That I would do anything for these four people (and my little pepper) and look forward to expanding this circle in 2014.  


Suzanne said...

Very insightful Cindy. You are a talented, generous, giving person and your close friends and family are lucky to have you in their corner. You have been so caring to me, an acquaintance. I thank you so much for that and hope I can reciprocate by helping you with that tree skirt. You're right about the analogy with men. Men with drive and dedication are perceived as strong. Unfortunately women with the same qualities can be perceived as bitchy. Never apologize for who you are. In God's eye you are perfect.

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