Thursday, August 29, 2013

Weekend-Here I come

Whew, its been a very hectic couple of weeks and a very long 7 days.  I am heading to the coast to unite with my siblings tomorrow.  I have been looking forward to it all week.

Its been a stressful few days.  My sister DeDe started her chemo last week on Wednesday.  It was her first round and it was a doosey.  Many Many texts back and forth with her husband (Captain) mostly medical questions ensued over the course of the week.  She required two unplanned trips to the doctor and one ER visit for hydration, which is not the norm.  Unfortunately I know just a little to much to make it nerve racking.  I felt like a yo yo!  Many times in my head i would think should i stay in Bako or run to the coast.  I wanted to support the Captain in taking care of her and reassuring him she was going to be ok, even if I wasn't sure myself I am the general of her army and its hard to lead from two hours away.   But yesterday she turned around and now she is feeling much better. So I feel much better.  Richard has been busy baking and mixing something yummy for me to take to DeDe so she feels the love we have for her.  He doesn't show emotion and is rough around the edges, but he does things like this that show me he cares.

So as I head off to bed, I will be dreaming of this crazy bunch of pirates below and look forward to our time spent together this weekend.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Where Time Goes...

Where does the time go?  Everyone asks that and today I wonder that.  Life is so busy and we all tend to loose ourselves in the day to day, year to year rush.  With my sisters recent cancer diagnosis and knowing time will be limited even though we don't know "how long", I have begun to look at  my day to day life a little differently.

For a good 21 years I have worked and worked and worked to support my family, to support a practice I believed in to help my best friend.  At times my family came second.  As being the primary bread winner, I felt a responsibility, as a key person in a practice, I felt responsibility. Responsibility!   A word I have always taken seriously.  But along the way, I tried to give myself some me time and over the past five years or so, I have traveled somewhere every year.  Something I plan on continuing.

But day to day, i am starting to cut back just a little.  Replacing work hours with workout hours, replacing the 7 pm end of day with 5 pm happy hour, or a massage or girlfriend time.  I have become more proficient with my personal defense weapon with routine target practice which really helps relieve my pent up aggression and I am getting pretty good at it too.

I am pushing for more family time all the way around, with my sisters, my children, nieces and nephews as in the end family is all that matters.

Only you can make yourself happy, healthy and content.  Its time for me to do just that.