Sunday, December 1, 2013


On Thanksgiving, everyone takes a  minute to stop and think about what they are thankful for.

This year was no exception.  Maybe I stopped to think about it a little more often given the circumstances.  Circumstances I did not want to ponder, but reality would peak in every now and then.  The goal of thanksgiving for me was to make memories. Memories that would not be forgotten and to relive memories that were once made.  My sister DeDe wanted a family reunion as well as a family picture.
The picture above was a request DeDe had made, her family all decked out in Hawaiian attire and a picture she got and a whole lot more, the good with the bad.  I am thankful we all had this time together, though no so sure she is by now as she is cleaning up the mess I am sure we left!

As children grow up and get married or start their careers dynamics change in the family.  We all have to change to fit that dynamic back into the same ole box.  I am thankful I was able to spend thanksgiving with my two children.
These two are pretty special to me. They are each fabulous in their own unique way.  I am very proud of them and how well they are doing in life.  

Family, it is everything.  When you have no one else, you have your family.  Son, daughters, daughter in law's, husbands.  I so love my family..  
I told them I only wanted a family picture and they agreed.  

So as we head out of the Thanksgiving weekend onto the Christmas season, I am mindful that each day is a memory in the making and I plan on making as many as I can.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

She is........

Beautiful, amazing, fabulous, enlightened, brave, sweet, sassy, giving... I could go on and on and on about my daughter Rachel or Rachie as I love to call her.

I have been thinking a lot about my life ahead, my life behind me.  Mostly since my sisters cancer diagnosis and how I would feel in her shoes.  It gets you thinking about what you have done and what you want to do and what you are going to do.    When Rachie asked me to take a couple of pics of her I of course said yes.  In this particular shot as I stared down through the lens at the BEAUTIFUL young woman I immediately was overwhelmed with pride, love.  I love that Rachel has never ever ever compromised her feelings or position or beliefs in her 26 years on earth.  She has done things that have made her happy, not the masses.  She amazes me every day.  I should take a chapter out of her book and do what makes me happy, not what I think makes everyone else happy.  That is a very scary thought.  Rachie I hope you always know how much I love you and how you amaze me.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Just when you think.....

I woke up today, already a little out of sorts.  Not entirely sure why, but figured it would sort itself out.  I had lunch with the family yesterday, that was nice, but not enough time.  There is never enough time these days I find.  I started to get on the iMac, but decided to upgrade the operating system, which took a lot longer than I expected so I decided to sew some "easy" sleep pants.

My project life was already caught up so I pulled out the fabric I had and pattern and got a cutting.
I was cruising along.  Brought it all into my happy place and started sewing.  Now I am not an advanced sewer, more like I took a class in high school and fiddle with it now and then.  I piddled around sewing a section, eating breakfast and updated computer all at the same time.  Around noon I decided to get the pants finished so I could move to a baby book I am doing.  I was at the waste band and put it together, incorrectly.  I tore out the stitches and proceeded to stare at the instructions puzzled why what I had in my hands didn't look like the picture, I jumped up and headed toward my Moms place, rounded the corner and stop in my tracks.  I stared at her door and started bawling.  She's not hear, she hasn't been here for three years!  She can't help me. No one can help me.  I turned back around and went back to my happy place and proceeded to stare at the instructions in silence and in tears for two hours.  Finally I realized I was missing a piece.  But bigger than that a piece of my heart, my history, my life is gone too,  She died on Halloween three years ago.

I am not sure she knew how much I needed her.  I know she knew I loved her, I told her all the time. But today I needed her.  I sat for such a long time trying to wrack my brain on who could I call to ask what I was doing wrong.  The answer, No one.  I am the one everyone calls, not the other way around.

But as I have done my entire life, I figured it out.  I always figure it out.  I always come up with the answer. So in the end I have some cute sleep pants, made with love.  The love of sewing my mom shared with me that I hope to share with those I love as well.  But if I learned anything today I learned that maybe I need a sewing lesson, then maybe I won't spend another afternoon lost!!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Hello From Nashville!

Landed in Nashville at 5 pm grabbed a rental car and headed to our historic hotel Union Station

It's an old gorgeous hotel and had a beautiful wedding dinner in the large lobby last night.   I want to snap a pic but felt like I was intruding. 

We headed to dinner at The Watermark Resturant in the gulch area of Nashville the headed to Honkey Tonk Row!

 OMG so many people and a 100 bachelorette parties. Blake shelton and Reba concert whew crowded but fun!  We walked our buts home at midnight after our fill!  

Today we started with the country music hall of fame 
 it has an exhibit THE BAKERSFIEKD SOUND. Wow do cool!

So much info on Buck Owens and Merle Haggard!  Totally cool to see!  

we then had a fun lunch in a Honkey Tonk then headed to Opryland and the grand ole opry 

All in all a fun day!

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Weekend-Here I come

Whew, its been a very hectic couple of weeks and a very long 7 days.  I am heading to the coast to unite with my siblings tomorrow.  I have been looking forward to it all week.

Its been a stressful few days.  My sister DeDe started her chemo last week on Wednesday.  It was her first round and it was a doosey.  Many Many texts back and forth with her husband (Captain) mostly medical questions ensued over the course of the week.  She required two unplanned trips to the doctor and one ER visit for hydration, which is not the norm.  Unfortunately I know just a little to much to make it nerve racking.  I felt like a yo yo!  Many times in my head i would think should i stay in Bako or run to the coast.  I wanted to support the Captain in taking care of her and reassuring him she was going to be ok, even if I wasn't sure myself I am the general of her army and its hard to lead from two hours away.   But yesterday she turned around and now she is feeling much better. So I feel much better.  Richard has been busy baking and mixing something yummy for me to take to DeDe so she feels the love we have for her.  He doesn't show emotion and is rough around the edges, but he does things like this that show me he cares.

So as I head off to bed, I will be dreaming of this crazy bunch of pirates below and look forward to our time spent together this weekend.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Where Time Goes...

Where does the time go?  Everyone asks that and today I wonder that.  Life is so busy and we all tend to loose ourselves in the day to day, year to year rush.  With my sisters recent cancer diagnosis and knowing time will be limited even though we don't know "how long", I have begun to look at  my day to day life a little differently.

For a good 21 years I have worked and worked and worked to support my family, to support a practice I believed in to help my best friend.  At times my family came second.  As being the primary bread winner, I felt a responsibility, as a key person in a practice, I felt responsibility. Responsibility!   A word I have always taken seriously.  But along the way, I tried to give myself some me time and over the past five years or so, I have traveled somewhere every year.  Something I plan on continuing.

But day to day, i am starting to cut back just a little.  Replacing work hours with workout hours, replacing the 7 pm end of day with 5 pm happy hour, or a massage or girlfriend time.  I have become more proficient with my personal defense weapon with routine target practice which really helps relieve my pent up aggression and I am getting pretty good at it too.

I am pushing for more family time all the way around, with my sisters, my children, nieces and nephews as in the end family is all that matters.

Only you can make yourself happy, healthy and content.  Its time for me to do just that.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Calgary in Photos

Below are photos from Calgary.  We went mainly for the Stampede for Richard's 60th birthday.
He used to rodeo before I met him and loves the sport and always wanted to go and see the chuckwagon races.  You would have never known in downtown Calgary that 
there had been a flood 13 days before.  We started our experience with the parade.
Unfortunately most of my pics have people standing in front of me.
So here are a few.  It wasn't spectacular, but fun all the same and a
celebration of how the Calgarians pulled together to get ready
for the stampede.

 Some of the rodeo cowboys came into the arena
from above.  Was alot of fun.

 I joined in on the festivities wearing my boots and 
yelling Ya-hoo (not yee haw in Canada)

Below are some of the chuck wagon race pics.  Hard to capture on camera
but we loved it all the same.

 We missed alot of the rain each day with perfect timing.

So glad we went.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Banff | Canada

It will take me a couple of weekends to get thru and edit all my trip pics.  Here are the Banff Photos.

 Lake louise from the top of the peak we took via gondola

 While we were stuck on the gondola a female grizzy walked below us. So pretty

Loved Banff, so beautiful.  Lake Louise takes your breath away and the turquoise water is beautiful.