Sunday, October 31, 2010

She is ...

She is in a better place I am told. Its hard to imagine today that one week ago she was fine and today she is gone. This is one of my favorite photos of mom and two of my sisters. I am sifting through photos and memories and holding on the the past week. As my father held her to his chest she took her last breath at 12:20 am today. Kinda ironic as she is superstitious and she died on Halloween. But I imagine she is in a better place and is reunited with her mother and father, friends and loved ones that have passed. She was so strong a person in life and we were strong for her in death. As you can imagine, the love of her life is devastated but he has us to take care of him. We told her that early this am, we told her it was OK to go that Dad has us and we will take care of him She always said she would "haunt him" if he died first. Now dad hopes it won't be long before he joins her. I hope it is forever. That selfish I know but I can only take so much and I need more time. I have never just abandoned my responsibilities as I have this week. But I know that's what I need to do to get my father and family through this and send my mother to heaven as my father so wants to do. I could not have done it without the support of my best friend who has done so much this week for me. He stepped into a role that was not his to do and explained what a terminal illness means and the choices that go with it in a way that made my mother and father understand. They were able to make the choice to not prolong death without any uncertainty. My dad looked at me and said he is something else and I said yes, yes he is. For me that was a huge load off my heart, mind and soul. My constant companions Lisa, Lindy and Richard gave me the strength I needed to be the leader, to remain strong. I am truly blessed. So tonight we gather for the first time without my mama. We remember, we love and we are together.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Another day

Sometimes Zoey Lou jumps up and comforts me when I am sitting by my mom. Zoey Lou knows something is wrong, She is never allowed in Grannys place! But she knows something is up and she knows her mommy needs her.

This tender moment unfolded and while my mom does not look the prettiest, I can feel the emotion.

My moms brother, uncle Eddie comes a few times per day. She knows he is here.
I spend most my time with my mama and my father and sisters. I sneak out for a few minutes at a time to get some air, take a deep breath, cry a little, write down a few words or look at a picture. Its another day.

Friday, October 29, 2010

A Favorite Photo

When my moms sudden illness hit me, I was and still am so overwhelmed. I am usually the one who takes care of everything for everyone without a problem. I am stilling doing that today. I am also the person who has her camera handy at all times. I did not take any pictures the first couple of days as I did not want to document or record this event. But now, I see there are things to record. My mothers death is close. I wish I knew how long, but I don't. If you ask me it will be soon, but she is holding on for something or someone, I just don't know who that or what that is... My sister Lisa and I were up most of the night and all day with her today. Lindy leaves late and comes early to take over, but sleep eludes Lisa and I. We are tired, I am tired for my mother. It takes all her energy to breathe. My sister Bev will be here tomorrow and I will have another hand to help us, to take a shift, to support dad. He needs so much support right now.
Today my uncle Eddie came, he is my mothers brother. I have not seen him in 20 years. He looks the same. He held her hand and she said Ohhh Ohhh when she saw him. She smiled. I tell her every hour that I love her. My children come and hold her hand and laugh and tell stories of their Granny. Right now I am counting the minutes till her next medication dose so I can lie down for a bit. But before I go, here is my very FAVORITE photo of my mother and I. It is New Years Day 1965. My mother is BEAUTIFUL and I love how her smile touches her eyes. I love you mama!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Holding On

That is what I am doing right now, holding on. This is a picture my sister DeDe took of my dad holding my moms hand in the hospital. That is what he is doing, holding on to my mother. I don't think he is ready to let her go, not that I am either. It's happening sooo fast. Her first night home was last night and I don't think Lisa and I slept at all, constantly getting up to make sure she was alright, giving her her meds every three hours, touching her, telling her we love her. I wish I knew how much longer, I have an educated guess, but I wont say it out loud.

So I will keep holding on to every minute, every smile, every I love you. Lindy, Lisa and I are my mother and fathers constant companions. They are going to be sick of us soon. lol. My cousin Barry who I have not seen in 20 years was here today along with my parents pastor and their grandson Chris. My mothers brother is coming tomorrow. I have a lot of guilt as I have really abandoned the office and Tommy. But I just can't be there when my mom needs me these last few days. I can't, I have to hold on....

Wednesday, October 27, 2010


I have had a sudden illness in my family. My mother was diagnosed with lung cancer three days ago. Today I take her home on hospice. When I stayed the night with her I curled up with my leopard Minky blankie that my friend Suzanne made. It was soft and comforting. Last night my sister Lisa spent the night. When I came early this morning the first thing she said was " where did u get that blanket ?". It made me feel so good do soft I wanna get one. I said sorry Lisa it's one of a kind! And no I'm not giving it to you! Thank you suzanne for making me and my sissy feel better!!!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

The first year baby book

I put together a Everyday life, the first year baby book for my friend Debbie's son's baby shower today. I didnt have a lot of time this week so it went together in a total of about 3 hours, which for me is a short time. I am loving grey this year just love it and am drawn to it wear ever I am.
This album was inspired by Janet Hopkins Baby Milestone binder book. I saw it on Ali Edwards blog. It utilizes the house of 3 Babies first year printable kit and My Minds Eye Andrea Victoria Line, which also available for Designer Digitals.

If you look closely I tried Janets technique of using a medium and then stamping into the medium which leaves a texture. Mine was with matte not glossy medium and discolored a little but still cool, (difficult to photograph thou)

This is the first time I used a printable kit, which are pdfs that you print off and use. I printed most of the journaling cards, but resized them first. Really liked it. House of 3 has tons of printable kits which work for those who do not know how to use photoshop.

I also like how the book photographed againest my tiffany blue walls and dove grey counters.

I printed the frames on transparancies and put them on on the back of the journaling card leaving the top open so a picture could be slipped in.

This rose I made frame lace that I cut from a big piece of flat fold lace. I folded it and fathered the edge (yes suzanne i sewed again, thanks to you and your inspiration :) ) I twirled it around and glued to a piece of felt and added a brad, button and jewel. I was happy with it for my first time around.

Again I so love the grey, white, black and gold.

Can't have a book without bling!!!!!

I love love love love love love ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ DAMASK.

I also cut up a rub on, which I never would have thought to do until I took Jenni Bowlin's class in Mykonos, Greece. Honestly I used to hate rub ons, but now I love them.

I printed sweet memories on a tag and adhered with a brad and Heidi Swapp ghost clock.

I made the cute little grey polka dot pocket with a brush stamp from House of 3 so they could put little bits and pieces in it from the shower.

See another little sprinkle of Damask, cause I LOVE IT. I make little circles all the time and print them out and use a punch to punch them out. I have all sizes of circle and scalloped punches.

I used some old vintage buttons for the last page on top of couple of paper pieces. The base of the book was a Michaels 1.00 book in the bin by the door.Theh original book from Janet Hopkins was an old book and she used a binder mechinism. I cannot find them at all except in BULK and I cannot use 1000 binder mechinims. Ugh. Someday I will tackle it one day.

Now I had to finish this book in a hurry this am as the shower was today. I couldn't do it without my yummy pumpkin spice latte. ( my favorite )
And now I have to clean up this giant mess in my scrap room so I can start something else, plus edit the 500 pictures I took today at the baby shower.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Glee - Happy days are here Again - Duets [FULL SCENE HD]

Everyone knows I am a Gleek but this past week, the duet of Happys Days are here again just blew me away and made me feel, really feel that Happy Days are Here Again. So Enjoy and feel HAPPY!!! (ps if you double click on the video, it will pull up in utube and play faster)

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Sex and the city

Wow, what a weekend with two super late nights, lots of Cosmos and good times with good friends.

What I learned is we all need some girl time. To laugh and talk about everything and anything.
My pal Nancy and I started the party Saturday at Cafe Med with a whole group of people including the Villanueva's, The Payne's, Wayne and Don. Now that was some good appetizing!!

I smile at this silly picture of Nancy, Debbie and I that my iPhone took and all the lights cause lens flare. We left cafe med and headed to the Fall Celebration of The Lee's 20 years in Bakersfield party. It was a beautiful setting and we had a great time continuing the laughs and fun even after the party died down.
This is the first of many monthly girls nights out. We all need to put on a sexy top, some lipstick and head out with are best pals for some fun. We had an amazing time and I cant wait to do it again.
However I need to remember that I cant stay up past midnight two nights in a row and then get up and do a photo shoot!!!! I just don't have enough stamina! LOL I hope to show you the pin up girls photo shoot sometime this week. For now I have gotta get some sleep.!!!!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

It says it all....

I think I am misunderstood by many many people and I only have a handful of really close friends who truely know me. But I saw this blog surfing and fell in love with it. I guess I have no patience for stupid, insensitive and hurtful people. I put up many walls to keep them out. BUT if your in, your in for life.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

From Norway

I met a fabulous designer and scrapbooker in Greece her name is Gudrun Loennecken and she lives in Norway. She designs scrapbooking paper and did a fabulous make and take little book with her line of paper. She is bright and sunny and her husband was wonderful as well. I hope you check out her blog. Its fun to see so many people love memory keeping and are so creative all around the world.

Monday, October 11, 2010

The pumpkin patch

It has been several years since I have went with my children to the pumpkin patch. Rachie and I went to the movies today and saw the new katherine Hegal movie This is Life, which was very good, and then we headed to Murray Family Farms to pick our pumpkin since we were on that side of town. Well I was super disappointed and will not return. Why you ask?

This is the largest pumpkin in the patch and it cost me 10 dollars. This is the first and last time I head out to Murray Family Farms. To get on the hayride to pick your own stuff is 10.00 and you get one pumpkin and no time to pick any other fruit. So no apples or pears for me. I was really upset. I still took picks of course. Had to make the best of it and Rachel is always a good sport.

Isn't she a cutie!!!!

And look when I got off the hay ride these two little cuties were there getting ready to go pick their pumpkin. Ace and Addy my great niece and nephew. Stopped for one second to let me take a pic. Not the best but I got them anyway.

So I left unhappy and spend another 10 bucks on a bigger pumpkin that I should have just gotten from the store to begin with. Next time its the Banducci Pumpkin patch for me!~!!!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Volume 3

Volume 3 of the Banducci Clan will be making an appearance in December. Her family shower is coming up, we are having one for her at work as well thanks to Sally's planning. I volunteered to make the invites for the family shower. Here they are. The satin ribbon is dove grey but is a little darker in the pic but I think its too cute. Candice does not learn the sex of her babies so I had to make one that could go for either. Its unisex and I utilized the Childhood Paper Pack for K Pertiet at designer digitals for the card base image and the blue mother goose wording. The punched out scallop is word art that I made myself. The hardest part was tying the bow. Overall pretty happy with it.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Awh Saturday

I love Saturday and Sunday. I can sleep till I wake up on my own. I can play in my happy place all day and night. Perfection. Today will be full of errands and crafting. So I leave you with a peaceful shot of the Eifell Tower. Brings me right back to that spot!!!!!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Eat, Pray, Love

My daughter Rachel is a huge Eat, Pray, Love fan. She read the book and we saw the movie together. I never ready the book but the movie to me was very inspiring. We all would like to just run away for a year and discover ourselves. Anyway, back to the story. Will we were in Rome Julia Roberts was there for the screening of eat, pray, love. It was just a block from our hotel. Rachel had already requested that we go to Naples for the day to eat pizza at Da Michele this is the spot that Julia Roberts ate Pizza in the movie. I only had my point n shoot camera as I had research Naples before going and it has a lot of pick pockets and crime. I was afraid of getting my good camera stolen. I was right in doing so. Naples is dirty, scary and I did not like it at all, BUT the pizza was good.

So we headed off the train and I had google map directions to the pizzeria. It was about 3/4 of a mile from the train station. We set off and as we got close we were looking for the street signs. Well we didn't need to look at them, just look for the crowd. Wow the ally was full of people.
Rachel pushed her way into the place and got our number!
As you can see our number is 39. They were on number 80!!!!! So two hours later we finally got seated.
They cook all their pizzas in a wood burning oven and only serve two kinds one sauce only(pizza marinara or poor mans pizza) and the margherita pizza which was named after a queen of Italy and it is sauce, mozzarella and basil. Red, white and green like the flag. We had the marghertia pizza with double mozzarella.
The rest of Naples was not worth mentioning, but this was yummy and the cheapest meal I had the entire trip. Thanks Rachel for making us go to Naples just to eat pizza!!!! I guess I did run away for a day.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Random Greece Photos

Cafe Frappe (greek coffee) and coca cola light, Was a bummer no pepsi

Pretty church

Mirror in the lobby with catherine, stacy and I

sunset by the pool

Catherine, Paulo and stacy from Ohio

My roomie catherine and I

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Notre Dame

On our first day in Paris, we headed to the flea market. I was super disappointed as they really thought their stuff was worth so much. I am talking 20 dollars for a button or a piece of lace. Thus all I bought was an old key. We then headed to see Notre Dame and a garden right across the river from their. I love the photos. The weather was touchy and rain clouds in and out, but despite that I did capture a few pics. I could almost feel the hunchback up there in the tower!!!!