Monday, June 29, 2009

Cousins

Thou the event was not optimal, it did get these four cousins together in one place. I just happened to have the camera ready and snapped a photo. It pulls me to get my family together more often. Life is just too short.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Today he is .....


It's been a long week and the pain and suffering is over. My father in law Van Hughes died peacefully with his family around him yesterday at 11:33 am. As those who know me well, know I have been fighting to get him home and without pain earlier in the week. Since Thursday he has been home and comfortable with Hospice. I elected to use Odyssey Hospice, which I had never had experience with as they offered crisis nursing. Let me tell you that was a God send for me. She helped me understand the medication administration better, was there for two days straight allowing me to go to work on Friday and Richard and Diane to prepare for death. That was a huge relief for me.


I was with him Friday night and again on Saturday. Yesterday morning I new death would be this weekend. But was so shocked when he did a nose dive so quickly in a matter of minutes. My daughter Rachel and my niece Rebbecca were 30 minutes away and I tried with all my might to keep Van alive so they could say goodbye, but I failed at that.

Garrett, my son, came rushing in, he leaned over and said Grandpa I'm here, Garrett's here. Right then Van took his last breath and passed away. That hit Garrett pretty hard, but I know Van heard him and he was at peace. The girls were okay and I know Van knew we loved him.

Today I am at the task of finding a pic for the obituary and Rachel has volunteered to write it. Today I will remember and know that I helped him leave this world without pain, knowing he was loved.


Friday, June 26, 2009

What life means to me

I have been missing from my blog these past few days as I am dealing with a family member with cancer and his impending death.

Death is such a scary word, but in my mind today it would mean comfort. My father in law, while living a hard life, meant the world to my kids when they were very small. They have drifted about these last few years because as people age, sometimes they can be a little rough around the edges, that a young person just might not understand. They remember their "PA" differently than he has been the last few years, just as I have. The process of dying with cancer is too much for many to handle.

I am a pretty black and white kind of a gal. I am reserved with my emotions for those who do not truly know me. But can be fierce with them when I need to be. My father in law has no children of his own. Richard is his step on and he has been married to his mom for over 35 years. With Richards moms decent into dementia these past two years and failing health of my father in law, Richard and his sister Diane and myself have had to step in and take over their lives. When cancer hit my father in law, he was not in the best health mentally or physically. I felt I had to take this on and be his advocate. In a three week span of time I have seen him turn into a person I do not know, at times do not like, realizing he is unaware of his actions and ultimate death.

I spent the last two days at the ER and hospital, fighting with doctors to get him out of pain. Without my "screaming fits" and the friendship of Tommy, he would have been tied to a bed in pain and confusion. I think if my head would have not been firmly fastened to my shoulders yesterday, it would have spun around and turned green with rage. I was so angry at the lack of care or response from a local hospital doctor that admitted him. But Tommy came to my rescue helped me get my father in law comfortable and he is now home with hospice where I expect him to pass away in the near future. He needs 24 hour care to keep him comfortable and between Richard, Diane, myself and caregivers we will ensure that he is not in pain. I also realize that my children and nephew are having trouble seeing him that way and they cannot express it. I see it in their faces and their body language. So I will take over the care when I can so they do not have to because its what I can do.

But still I am angry. What about all those other patients who don"t have me ad their advocate. Who is helping them? Especially while the other private beds are filled with PRISONERS!!!(don't get me started on this subject or I will be here all day) Its said and shameful and WRONG. I am on a mission, this particular hospital doctor and his lack of response and care should not be allowed to ignore a patient in pain. He is going to know it, cause I have a VERY BIG MOUTH!!!!! and this time I am going to not keep it shut, but open it wide and make sure this does not happen to another patient in pain who should have comfort instead.

Monday, June 22, 2009

She Inspires Me



A picture says a thousand words, but here are a few.

She is:
affectionate
appreciative
capable
charmed
cherished
committed
comfort
confident
delighted
determined
devoted
enchanted
enthusiastic
faithful
forgiving
funny
generous
gentle
happy
hopeful
Inspiration
joy
kind
loving
passionate
strong
sweet
BEAUTIFUL

and so many many more. She is so much more than I was at that age and so much more than I will every be. I love her so very much.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

The Lovely Levi's

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What crazy things we do

For me the work week is crazy busy and I have very few spare minutes. I fill those spare minutes usually teaching digital scrapbooking. This past week I taught my hybrid 101 class at Simply Scrapbooks. Afterwards I had a YUMMY margarita with some friends.




You would never believe the talk around this table! We probably would make sailors blush.

Yesterday the same friends came over for some more digital time with Cindy. I enjoyed helping them learn to push their creative minds with digital scrapbooking. As always my husband cooked us a very yummy yummy dinner and dessert. Its one of the perks of scrappin at Cindy's house!
My bud Candra stopped by as well and it gave her and I time to come up with a beautiful caper for a friend of ours Suzanne Zingg. She owns strawberry patches and last week someone stole her planters. So being the "bandits" that we are we decided to steal away and replace them. While they may not be as grand as her original ones, they are filled with love (and bricks too) so they are going nowhere.!!!

For a laugh we sent her an anonymous email quoting " you have been hit by the BEAUTIFUL BANDITS.




Well I think she figured it out right away, Our reflection in the photo didn't help, but is was a gag anyway. Had a great time. I had to stop and wipe the drool from my mouth as I was looking at all the pretty ribbon and fabric through the windows but alas they were closed so I still have money in my wallet (lol).

For the record, no martinis were consumed in the planning of this caper, but I hope one will be shared soon with Suzanne as she is an inspiration everyday. Candra and I just wanted to make her laugh!!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Hump Day

Work has been hell busy! My good news a couple of weeks ago was that my previous nurse who moved away was moving back YEH!!!! However Monday morning I found out that she had decided to stay put as her kids really wanted to stay. I was sooooo depressed. While I understand it still didn't help ease my despair.

Tom and Candice try to cheer me up, but I just can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. I really need a nurse for the office. I can't keep doing three persons jobs! It's so depressing. But I guess I will survive, I always do.


My husband is trying to change his ways with cooking as his YUMMY food is packing on the pounds. Three weeks ago I put my foot down and said I am not eating any potatoes and very little bread. He has complied. Tonight this was what was on the menu.




Now I know you see the bread, but sometimes a girl needs some comfort. This weekend he is planning a meal for Nancy and Sara and hopefully Candra who are coming over. I said we love your food, but we have to have salad and don't get mad if we don't eat the potatoes! Ya gotta love him.

Ps. Richard made me take a picture of tonight's dinner. He said I want credit for trying. So girls give him credit.

Monday, June 15, 2009

A peaceful sunday

I spent a pretty peaceful Sunday. Instead of working on my July Hybrid class I played with a template from Anna Aspnes at Designer Digitals. I used all the wonderful photos that my bud Candra George took last year to create the layout along with some tabbed dates, heart strings No1 and All you need word overlays by Kpertiet of designer digital as well. Since I was in the Paris mood (my new background) I added some french word art by Galiscraps. I found it on a french digital scrap site. Really love all the blending. I wish Sunday would last forever.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

What I learned today

My husband woke me up at 6 am today UGH. So I got up and decided to learn something new. I created my new blog background and header. The technique is cutting out something from a pic. So I cut out rachie and I and the rose bush and then softened the edges and made my new blog header. Use a couple of brushes from House of 3 and grunge brush.. I used some itty bitty actions that I saw demo'd on Rhonna Farrer's blog on both the pic in my header and on the Eiffel tower in the background. Was fun to do.

Well off to the store and then back to scrap some more pics. Boy I love Sunday.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Friday

I am so glad it is Friday. I had a better week, still stressful, but okay. I had help with some HR business which really really made me feel better. My friend Nancy Sutherland, (mother of the twins) stepped in when I needed help and I am soooooooooooooooooooo grateful. She balances me out quite a bit and reassures me that I am not that awful person some claim me to be. I know that I am pretty black and white and emotion is reserved for those I care about the most. But if you are one of those people, I will give you my last breath. So thank you Nancy. Without your support these past two weeks, I may just have fell apart.

I have some scrappin in my mind to do and plan on doing that all weekend. Just have to have a pit stop at the office Saturday to install some new time clock software and hardware. Then i will be off and running. So here is to sleeping until I wake up tomorrow and having two morning lattes instead of one. I have been good all week, I deserve it don't ya think?


Here is another shot from our trip to the beach. Rachie is my little cupcake!!!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Ohh Wednesday

God, its only Wednesday. How much longer till Friday? Tomorrow is going to be a very busy stressful day, tonight I am up late making a couple of cards for someone who needed them and I really should be going to bed. However I wanted to download some pics I took this weekend of Rachie so my card is clean to take some photos tomorrow. I really think my skills are so much better. This is an untouched photo. Love the composition and the colors, plus it helps that rachie is photogenic. Love it. Please can I skip Thursday and move right on to Friday?

Sunday, June 7, 2009

REFLECTION

I am going to start teaching an intermediate Photoshop Digital and Hybrid class starting in July. I really love the reflection technique and did this layout from Nicole Young's tutorial. I thought it would be perfect for my first class in July. Happy Sunday

Saturday, June 6, 2009

No I am not......

In response to my last post, no I am not pregnant, that would be bad news, no I am not starting a new job-not sure I can every get out of my current bonds, no I am not doing anything different. What I can say is my work stress will be easing in about a month.

Anyway took a trip to my sister The Princess to scrap a little and relax. I put together this little layout of my great nephew ACE. He is the cutiest little monster and I love him to death. I am heading to San Luis now to do a little shopping with Rachie then heading home for a good nights rest.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Awh Friday

Another tuff tuff weak. Dealing with employee issues again, which my pal Nancy Sutherland really really helped me out with, along with the need for me to give up or stop doing three persons job and just one person's its a wonder I am even functional. My father in law has bladder cancer which has metastasized to multiple organs. He had surgery last night and doesn't even remember that he has cancer and has to be reminded. I feel a burden on trying to get him to realize him prognosis, but I don't think the elevator goes all the way to the top.

But I did get some good news today, can't share it as I promised, BUT it made my day, my week, my year. Sooooooooooooooooooooooo there are sun shinny days ahead. So to celebrate we are heading to Mexicali and I am going to have a margarita!!!!!!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

HUMP DAY

ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT IT IS WEDNESDAY. THATS THE ONLY GOOD THING GOING ON WITH ME RIGHT NOW.

Monday, June 1, 2009

June Class

Here is a sneak peak at my June Hybrid 101 Class at Simply Scrapbooks. It will a totally digital version this time, with instructions to make it hybrid if wanted. The class will include printing of the layout at the store. I am hoping to start intermediate classes in July. This layout was scraplifted from Deena Wuest. The text paths were from Patty Knox at Designer Digital along with the DoodleDo Frames by Katie Pertiet. I designed all the paper included in this kit and will be included in the class. The cute kids are Claire and Dominic Banducci. Their mother Candice is one of my bff's




















Here was a quick layout of my Rachie and her friend Niko Bono. Love the black and white with a hint of color