No I am not off to see the wizard, thou I did listen to the Wicked soundtrack this morning I just love that Broadway show. I saw it on Broadway in New York then again at the Pantages in LA. I just cannot get enough of it. I think in a way I am a little wicked. But if you know the story, she really isn't wicked, she is misunderstood. In a big way I am misunderstood. I would say only a handful of people truly know the real me. The rest just know what they have heard. Its hard to get into my inner circle. I guess the misconception of Cindy Welch started when I began my nursing career. I had and still have very high standards and if I have to be bitchy to get the care my patient deserves then so be it. I was requested frequently by physicians to take care of their patients, for they knew I was on top of everything. I am not bragging really, just stating the facts. I expected all the other nurses to be at my level. I thought and still think that my level should be the baseline, not the goal. I was constantly reprimanded for being so "demanding", which is another word for bitchy I suppose. So I made few friends. And while this was 20 years ago, I still feel the same, I just don't let it get me "bitchy" But if it was your family member, you would not settle for a "mediocre" nurse, you would want the best.
As I transitioned into the position I am now, I have lost some of that bitchiness as I have learned that I cannot bring people up to my level. Not everyone has the potential. But I still won't settle for mediocre. Which again, leaves most people with the wrong impression.
I am a very direct honest person, I do not intentionally try to hurt anyone, but I am not going to sugar coat something just to make that person feel good. If I have something to say, I say it. Simple really for me, but difficult to handle by those who don't know me. But I am okay with that. For I think I am a very loving, giving person and would do anything and everything I can for a friend. So those who misunderstand me, are really missing out.
So as I ride off on my broom to San Diego to see my sissy, I feel that I am blessed to have those close friends and family around me and look forward to traveling that yellow brink road into my future.